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title: contemplate life
sorry long time no update guys.. gals.. been busy wit.. stuff.. EOY's.. been mugging like hell in case u ppl dunno.. having some troubled thinking..not sure wats gg on.. having nightmares every single nite.. not once a nite but atleast twice or trice!! life seems soo scary in my nightmar sm how, it seems soo real.. the feeling i feel in the nightmare and when i wake up from it.. is the same.. woke up feeling like life is over.. it happened yesterday.. and dis morn.. i shattered to pieces and broke down crying.. just to notice tt wat happened was just a nightmare.. anyways.. yea.. trying to get rid of dis stupid nightmares.. so yea.. its overtaking my mind.. no one seem to b able to make me feel better.. ok maybe dearest <3 helped a bit.. thank god i hav her.. anyways.. back to life.. ntg much.. i was super noisy in mdrsh today.. but sm how super smart too.. but some of the ussual jokers not there to join me like always so yea.. boring crackking jokes alone.. ppl laugh at my jokes, than i laugh at wat??!! im not gonna laugh at my own jokes rite?? itll look lame.. lol.. guess tts about it for now.. to those ppl who keep asking me update.. to YOU.. dowanna say who .. happy not??!! lol... PS: lov u loads dearest <3!! // Sunday, September 16, 2007, 8:34 PM title: 4 letter word... QUIT..
body starts to tremble.. hands start to shiver.. heart starts pumping harder.. heart beat almost stops beating.. sick in the stomach.. reflexes slow down.. eyesight start blurring.. knees start wibbling.. time is passing... the clock still ticking.. tick.. tick. tick.. and.. crrrrrckk... it stops.. brain dead.. And the famous 4 letter word comes to mind.. *u#$!!!!!! when ever stress overcome us.. hey! wat u thinking??!! saying the 4 letter word out soo loud!!.. its bad! its a sin to say it! tts the forbidden word! ur gonna get in deep shit!! hey!.. wait a minute.. wat u gasping about?? wat 4 letter word u think im using?? >>Q>>U>>I>>T>> tts it.. tts my 4 letter word.. and yes.. i did use it.. alot lately.. may god forgiv me.. and all of u who used it before.. "take problems as challenges.. always giv all out at the final sprint and nvr quit.. coz u might not know the fruits of labour waiting for you at the finish line" Dr. William Tan.. EOY's.. heart breaker to some.. start of a new life for others.. but which ever catagory u end up in.. always.. do not #U*@... u might be in the heart broken group.. but make it be.. ur succesful failure.. for those who end up starting a great new life wit ur ooo soo good results.. make sure.. it doesnt turn out to be ur failing succes.. // Tuesday, September 11, 2007, 7:15 PM title: FUN DAY!!
went to sch myself today... fun2! ok not fun but.. somwhow very high the whole day..was about to sleep in the bus when i heard about track n field on the tv mobile.. they showing chanel news asia.. than suddenly soo interested.. cnt sleep ready.. by then, i was wide awake.. ASAFA POWELL BROKE THE RECORD.... YET AGAIN!!! by 0.03sec!! OMG!!! well, all u... MoFu's who ever said tyson gay faster... WAT DO U HAV TO SAY ABT TT!!!??? cmon la guys.. ASAFA POWELL!!! he wont let me down.. HE WONT!! anyways.. yea.. tts the reason im SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy today... than sch like normal... last period... music.. we hav a psyco teacher who thinks music is life.. but today, he totally didnt turn up at the music room... we all gathered in a circle n played... murderer, the finger game which goes.. tit ti ti tit tit.. tit tit.. and this chines game where we go... SA! and.. FAN SA!.. POM!.. ELELELEEL! and.. EHH!! very funny... haha.. than after sch met wit Brandon.. he wanted to blanja me dunno y.. so yea.. he got me dis ice latte from starbucks which cost like.. $5.10.. soo exx la!! but he seem to think its ntg ah.. rich bugger... than meet dearest <3!! watch ratatouille... miss her soooo much la!! went to eat after tt.. chatted about stuff... BEST DAY EVER!! i guess.. yep!! best day!! haha... tnx syg <3!!! lov u loads... // Monday, September 10, 2007, 9:03 PM title:
sound of the radio in almost full blast woke me up today.. bit.. headache when i woke up.. like.. blur2.. haha.. didnt wanna get up of bed coz of lethargy but had to coz my head told me to.. anyways.. went to geylang market wit parents.. wait.. no.. we went joo chiat complex buy curtain n i saw dis long sleave pink n black stipe shirt.. FELL IN LOV WIT IT!!.. but no stock for my size.. sooo sad.. it broke my heart.. HAHA!!than went home.. sleep i think.. cnt recall properly... n n .. i finished my book so was soo bored dun hav a book to read.. haha.. tts abt all i can rmbr.. BLUEKS!! // Sunday, September 9, 2007, 10:31 PM title: Live The Dream
ppl come n ppl go.. auditions pass and auditions flow.. talentime.. campus superstar.. singapore idol.. anugerah.. the singging anugerah.. the acting anugerah.. now.. latest.. Live The Dream.. many different kinds of shows that turns ordinary ppl into stars.. Singapore is a small country... with only about almost 4,000,000 ppl. in every show/competition.. many thousand ppl take part.. tell u, in three years time or soo, ppl will be walking around.. "eh! u tt guy on talentime rite??" "you!! tt chio bu from campus superstar??" "AHH!!! tts the singapore idol guy!! he's such a cuttie!!" "eh! isnt tt the minah in anugerah??" "eh tt geek!! he is tt anugerah actor!!" imagine walking in orchard road n hearing this things throughout the day!!?? thats one situation.. but ppl.. s much s we gotta support our home-born artist and stars, realy.. many many many many ppl who go into this shows.. n god.. they've got noo talent.. u go talentime, singapore idol.. n u cnt sing.. go anugerah, u cant act.. go campus superstar.. only hav the nice face.. c'mon ppl... and some even cnt take advice from judges.. "some ppl hav shattered dreams.. and some fulfill them.. but singging is just not ur cup of tea" "plz!! dun sing anymore" u can dance but u cnt sing.. maybe take up dancing instead??" and u go off crying.. swearing.. cursing.. Well, being told tt u SUCK!! hurts.. but.. u see.. its just reality.. face it.. oh for those who still wanna waste ur time joining these talent searching show when u hav got no talent for tt show.. maybe tts y there is the newly recognised... LIVE THE DREAM.. think they spelt it wrongly.. maybe they meant.. lEAVE the dream.. teehee... PS: im saying this just for the sake of fun, laughter, peace and joy // Saturday, September 8, 2007, 7:07 PM title: Math.. Day spoiler!!!
1st of all, to anyone whom i said tt i love maths, now... I HATE IT!! maths is the reason i was real moody and grumpy today.. well, luckily hav dearest<3 who made me feel a lot better.. she always does.. doing hmwk when i came across dis question which teacher havnt teach.. n remembered the question came out in CA2.. so was cursing n swearing under my breath at my teacher la.. than, tot i wud meet up wit Jie.. ask her teach me.. surprisingly, she agreed!! i tot she wud not la.. coz somebody dun wan her xiao di ready mah!! haha.. even forget to buy me vodoo doll!! haha.. jkjkjk.. went to macs to do my work la.. actually more like she do 4 me.. but than.. she started toking about her "friend" alot.. and kept askin about my dearest<3.. bit.. boring then... i wanted to go cut hair la but dad say he wont pay for it so i nvr cut.. damn pissed la my hair makes me feel stuffy!! well, than jie wanna meet her "friend" when i wanted to go off.. n she forced me to wait with her.. tot of saying hi to her friend la but when he came, i straight away go off without saying bye.. cnt help it.. JIE real sorry.. im not being mean.. juz didnt wanna excidently burst out laughing into his face rite?? haha.. well, there is ntg wrong wit him!! its juz me.. haha... most of all, muz say my special tnx to dearest<3 for keeping me company throughout the day.. and keeping me calm n not soo angry.. teehee...//, 6:50 PM title: TEEHEE
hmms.. training in the morning. was soo excited to go training coz we wanted to FINALLY giv miss yu(our clach) a teacher's day present. well, a bit too late i noe, but.. her fault la!! nearest training to teacher's day was on... the past monday.. msged her asking if she wud b coming training.. she said, no matter rain or shine.. than.. last minute she msg say change training to tuesday coz she felt sick.. so i was looking forward to tuesday.. coz i really really love training. than.. guess wat?? last minute she say change training to wednesday.. so we thought she wud come la.. the seniors all come despite having to study for their O's.. but she failed us.. so we played soccer instead of doing her program. she wasnt there anyway.. felt guilty though.. than.. we decided to giv her her present today la.. n.. she blew us off yet AGAIN.. but dis time we did her program.. tnx to my enthusiasm.. after training went to 7/11.. eat.. super duper hungry.. haha.. than stay there tok until soooo long.. and met up wit Jie at TP for a while.. nvr see her for soooo long.. she cut her pony tail n let her hair go.. she become like sooooo thin.. she felt like a stranger to me.. roars.. go kiddy palace.. i juz wanted to play wit the magic no.8 ball.. u noe the one tt ans ur questions.. n she is damn childish btw, go look at the tamagochi thing n still saving money to buy it.. its very cute la but she is 18 years old leh!!! than hav those children toys.. the barney can talk when u press its chest, she go press all the barneys until like.. sooo noisy.. damn funny.. n she looked soo happy to do tt.. seem a bit old for tt kinda stuff rite?? haha.. tt juz goes to show tt somethings can bring out the child in you.. no matter how old u are.. so yea.. erm.. i went home than she go meet her friend.. n than it was at 3+pm. reach home dunno wat to do.. luckily hav spongebob movie on HBO.. yay! long time since i watched spongebob.. but soo sad.. dearest not in the country so.. tot of her the whole day.. even while wit Jie.. damn bored the whole day.. was surprised how much i miss dearest.. n she is gone for only about 1 nite.. the day went on soo slowly.. so.. i decided to study.. hate it when im forced to study JUST to waste time..// Friday, September 7, 2007, 9:07 PM title: BaTaS LaNgIt ParT 2
1. Tuliskan sepucuk surat daripada seorang watak kepada seorang lagi watak. Kepada Ani, Ani, apa khabar kamu sekeluarga? Baik-baik sahaja? Kita di sini, bukan la bagus sangat. Kadang-kala, tidak ada makanan. Terpaksa aku dan Adi kelaparan. Namun, masih boleh hidup. Ayah kau sakit. Kencing manisnya semakin memakan. Tapi, dia berdegil juga. Masih mahu minum teh dengan banyak susu. Tidak tahu la aku hendak buat apa. Sakitnya, semakin hari semakin teruk. Asyik terbatuk-batuk sahaja tanpa henti. Aku pun ada juga batuk-batuk. Dada selalu sakit. Adi pula sekarang sudah bekerja. Dia pergi potong pokok kelapa, mencuci kereta setiap malam Sabtu dan kadang-kala pergi mencari timah sari untuk dijual. Dialah yang memberi mak sedikit wang untuk kami hidup. Dia sudah ada di sekolah menengah melayu sekarang. Mak rindu juga dengan kau. Sekali-sekala, datang la jenguk mak. Ajak Laki kau dan bawa anak kau. Aku pun hendak tengok cucu aku. Mak harap kau sekeluarga hidup dengan tenang. Jaga diri baik-baik. Sampai sini sahaja la surat mak ni. Sehingga kita jumpa lagi. Yang benar, Mak Timah //, 8:22 PM title: BaTaS LaNgIt ParT 1
2. Tuliskan sebuah diari entri yang ditulis oleh Adi. Ceritakan pengalamanWahai Diari, Pagi-pagi lagi sudah ada kain rentang bertulis: KAMI MAHU SEKOLAH MENENGAH MELAYU. Paling ramai, murid perempuan. mereka samua sedang memegang sepanduk kecil yang bertulis macam-macam. Sedang aku hendak mengikut mereka, aku teringat pesanan ibu supaya jangan ke mana-mana. Bapa sedang sakit teruk. Tetapi, melihat eadaan yang begitu hebat, aku megikut mereka juga untuk melihat mogok. Tiba sahaja di sana, ada seorang lelaki yang muka macam cina berucap. Dia mengucap tentang hak kita orang melayu belajar hingga berpelajaran tinggi dan mendapat pekerjaan lebih baik daripada menjadi seorang peon atau mata-mata. Dia mengucap dengan suara yang kuat, lantang dan berapi-api. Aku amat kagum dengan ucapan beliau. Aku turut bersorak bersama-sama murid-murid yang lain. Semakin lelaki itu bercakap dengan penuh semangat, semakin heboh dan panas keadaan di situ. Kini, ramai yang sudah mula memaki-maki penjajah. Penjajah ini la, penjajah itu la. Kata-kata lelaki itu, betul juga. Takkan kita mahu jadi peon atau mata-mata seumur hidup? Dengan pelajaran yang kurang tinggi, bila masyarakat melayu hendak maju? Bagaimana nusantara ini boleh menuju ke hadapan? Selepas orang itu berucap, giliran seorang tua pula. Dia pun berucap tentang perkara yang sama. semua orang di kelilingku kelihatan semangat sekali. Kini sudah ramai pemberita surat khabar tiba dan banyak gambar dipetik bertalu-talu. lelaki tua itu juga berucap dengan semangat dan pelajar-pelajar semua semakin banyak memaki-maki penjajah. Di tengah-tengah sorakkan ini, aku tiba-tiba teringat pesanan ibu dan bapa sedang sakit kuat. Polis sudah pun tiba dan murid-murid disuruh bersurai. Aku berjalan dengan pantas untuk pulang. Hatiku terasa pilu teringatkan ayah yang sedang sakit kuat. Aku sudah tidak menghirau kan seperti mana suasana di tempat kita mogok tadi. Tiba di rumah, Abang Dolah, Kak Habsah dan Mail Sengau sudah ada. Ayah semakin teruk sakitnya. Aku memicit-micit tangan ayah dan menangis di sampingnya. Hatiku terhiris bagaikan sembilu. Rumahku, sekolahku, hidupku, semuanya seperti dihancurkan di depan mataku. Mail Senagu disuruh ibu memanggil kakak di rumahnya. Abang Dolah membaca Yassin. Aku, tidak tahu membaca Yassin, tetapi Abang Dolah menyuruhku baca Fatihah dan Kulhu banyak-banyak. Kira-kira jam sebelas, Mail Sengau pulang dengan kakak, lakinya dan anaknya.Kini Abang Dolah semakin kerap membisikkan dan mengajar Ayah mengucap kalimah. Kelihatan muka ayah sangat tersiksa untuk menarik nafas panjang yang terakhir. Mukanya berkerut-kerut menahan sakit. Ayah pun menahan sakit dengan tabah dan menarik nafas panjangnya yang terakhir. Air mataku mengalir sahaja membasahi pipiku. Ayah telah pun kembali kepada penciptanya. //, 7:43 PM title: TeAcHeR--->MeNtOr--->FRieNd
beeb!! was on the comp late last nite.. until about 12am.. was on msn la.. was about to go offline when i noticed my special most fav malay teacher in the world online.. so decided to say hi n stuff.. felt so comfortable toking to her.. not like toking to a teacher at all.. even felt like her friend or smtg.. anyways.. we toked about stuff than suddenly about my dearest.. how i noe her n stuff like tt.. tell me.. how often do u get a teacher soo open minded huh?? she kinda disturb me until.. alot.. but its ok.. i disturb her back.. well, was just soooo hapy to tok to her.. might hav carried on toking till the next day but im no owl so went to slp at 12am... yea.. once a teacher.. now.. a mentor.. n a friend.. but the amount of respect.... STAYS.. <3//, 4:17 PM title: 1mth anni
1day... 2days... 4days... 8days..... 14days.... 22days.....29days... 31days.... HEY!! tts 1 mth!!erm.. writing dis for 4th september.. 2nd best day in my life.. 1st was ofcoz.. 4th august.. lets see... i wanted to go watch ratatouille. n syg wanted go ViVo.. wanted to show me mr.snowman.. haha.. uber cute.. but than.. her dearSIS n bf called. dun really rmbr wat hapened but we joined them to play pool.. after eating at novena.. s me n syg were under age, at 1st cnt go in la... than we stand there long2.. the guy say, aya.. juz go la.. (i tot it was part of "mike's" plan) well, so we played.. 1st time play pool... bit wierd i guess.. went to tt mall in woodlands to watch 1408 after tt.. the movie was "SUPER GOOD" (s u shud notice the inverted commas) it was crap!! i think 1 minute of Russel peters better than the whole movie.. than, finish ready, waited for syg's sis n bf to finish their movie.. some indon horror thing.. NC16.. NO FAIR!! well, yea.. had a chat wit 'mike' after syg n her sis left for a while.... BEST DAY OF DIS HOLS!! speciall tnx to my dearest.. dear sis.. n 'mike' // Thursday, September 6, 2007, 7:57 PM title: vitoria school turning co-ed?? NO WAY!!
"A victorian is ultimately a fair lady, a sportswoman and a professional". Wait a minute. Something is wrong. Isn't it supposed to be "a gentleman" and "sportsman" instead of "a fair lady" and "sportswoman"? For many years already, this motto which encapsulates the essence of being a Victorian has been a mantra uttered frequently with its equally popular counterpart Nil Sine Labore, which stands for nothing without labour. However, amidst its frantic preparation for the upcoming examinations, the student body is appalled to receive news that our motto, by now embedded quite fondly in our hearts, might well be altered, figuratively if not literally, in the near future. In the local newspaper the Newpaper, it is speculated that the fine institution that is Victoria School might become co-ed very soon. What was more disheartening than this piece of information was the fact that we the student body, got wind of it not from the school administration but from a public newspaper! I personally feel that this pressing issue must be addressed immediately, lest the imminent dissipation of the Victorian spirit. Firstly, it is only appropriate that the school administration consult the student body first, perhaps through a survey, before suggesting any changes. As quoted from Mr Maran, "a school is only as good as its students". I believe we have a right to have a say in any school affair, especially one as drastic as this. As such, petitions ranging from present Victorians to ex-Victorians, most prominently the 2004 secondary4 batch, which had done our school proud with their excellent 'O' Level results last year, have been written voicing their displeasure and shock over the news that their beloved school is turning co-ed, which to us, is the school's equivalent of turning gay. I assume that the reason behind the school administration even considering this notion in the first place is because its foresight is clouded by its desperate want to ensure stability in our academics through IP and thus its views are geared towards the positive aspects of this proposition and in the process fail to consider the ripples of dissent and the negative consequences that would ensue. I did take notice of the concerns over the fact that there the are no girls' schools affiliated to Victoria Junior College and thus girls might appear less able to attain entry as compared to Victoria School students. However, we must realise that there are some secondary schools in Singapore which are not affiliated to any colleges at all, much less have an IP program, yet they are still considered having equal entry probability and opportunities. I feel that entry to Junior College ultimately depends on one's personal determination and effort and we should not rely solely on petty means like affiliation or DSA. Some teachers or maybe even Victorians(probably at an intense stage of hormonal development) feel that it would be a refreshing change with girls in the school. Teachers might have the preconceived notion that girls are much easier to manage than crude and playful teenage boys. As for those Victorians who selfishly support the idea of a co-ed VS, I think they just relish the prospect of having girls in the schools, saving them the trouble of stepping out of their comfort zones to widen their social circles. We must, however, consider that the introduction of girls into our school will result in its own fair share of problems. Though not as rowdy as boys, girls tend to be talkative in class as well, maybe even more so than boys. Handling them might not necessarily be a piece of cake for the teachers. Regarding the latter issue, I think that despite our school being all guys, the Victorians through the years have still been able to attain high standing in their social ladder, so we must not assume that being deprived of girls in the school for four years would result in Victorians becoming lonesome figures in the future. We must instead, focus on more important aspects such as our studies and Co-curricular activities(CCA). One important thing to note also is that the top schools in Singapore are mostly NOT co-ed. Though this does not necessarily advocate the idea that just because the school is single-sexed it will do well academically, I believe that changing the system would spark off a chain reaction of events that would affect Victoria School's academic and CCA standings adversely and thus undermine our inherent superiority in these areas. Although girls are apparently smarter and more hardworking than boys and might prove useful in pushing our standards higher, I feel that boys in our tender age of 13-16 should not be given the opportunity to be distracted from our utmost priorities, our studies. Moreover, it is hard to impart our traditions and cheers that evoke the masculinity present in the Victorian Spirit to girls and this is what deters me most from accepting such a change. Victoria School will never be the same if it is not all boys. I think even Mr Chia, our operations manager, would not be pleased in having to tone down on his scolding to cater to the sensitive nature of the female gender. I don't think any true blue Victorian would like to see our beloved school turning co-ed. It might not be of too much effect on me since i only hav two years left here but it is said that"once a Victorian, always a Victorian" and I believe that I should play my part for the school by going against this decision. wish to sincerely urge the school administration and the Old Victorians' Associations(OVA) or anyone at all who have an attachment to the school to think twice about allowing it to be co-ed in order to preserve its well-being and traditions. If they so insist on making it co-ed, I hope they change the school name to Siglap Link Secondary to mark the end of the fine institution. I wish to be associated with the original Victoria School and not the monstrous apparition before me when I imagine it as a mixed school. To me there is only one Victoria School...and it is NOT co-ed. //, 7:31 PM title: I LOVE YOU GIRL
*chorusGirl! I think I like you girl, no doubt I love you girl. Girl! No one but u girl, coz no doubt I love you girl. (2x) Verse 1 Girl! Ur the woman in my life, I do really want u to be my wife. But I know, its still a long way from here, But I swear, I wont ever disappear Its been 1 month now and I never regret, waiting two years for you and that’s a fact Coz u, your the one I really love, got to thank one person, the god above. He who, gave me the girl I wanted, the girl I love and the girl I care for Girl, you’re the one who I would die for, whom I would strive for, one I would lie for When I’m alone, can only think of you, do you think of me? Hope u think of me too. So that’s my stand, to show you how I feel About everything and believe its real. Coz… *chorus Verse 2 Take me in your arms, and never let go. Keep me in your heart, everywhere you go. Our love would never end, just like the river flow Coz I know, that girl we’d make it for sure.. and When you’re not around me, girl I feel so lonely And I feel so cold, so small and tiny. Obviously. I need u my baby, hold me by the hand, touch me oh so gently. Hallucinate of you so suddenly, when I turn around, guess who I see? I see you, looking back at me. And you’re smiling, shining light on me. And.. *chorus Its been 1 month now and i nvr regret, waiting two years for you and tts a fact coz you, ur the 1 i really lov, gotta thank 1 person, the god above. He who, gave me the girl i wanted, the girl i lov and the girl i care for Girl, ur the one who i wud die for, whom i wud strive for, one i would lie for when im alone, can only think of you do you think of me? hope u think of me too.. hallucinate of you so suddenly, when i turn around, guess who i see?? i see you.. looking back at me and ur smiling, shining light on me.. //, 3:42 PM title: BOREDOM
dis is a story of me toking to myself... Me: yo! ziq.. hows ur day?? Myself: erm.. suck i guess.. Me: y? its the hols for gods sake!! Myself: dun u see?? my hols always suck! Me: i tot u had fun ystrday?? Myself: yeah! yesterday was fun.. it was great!! but today.. its days like today tt spoils everytg Me: oh.. woke up wit no one at home, no food.. wats up wit tt?? Myself: yea.. wats up wit tt.. mom went out early wit her friends.. Me: gosh.. than we're stuck at home?? Myself: like duh??!! no one to go out wit.. Me: friends?? im really getting sick n tired of staying at home.. Myself: u think u alone izzit??!! i oso leh!! Me: dunno la.. guess we just watch tv?? Myself: ya.. watch until when u tell me?? until tv overheat?? Me: dunno.. Myself: u noe wat.. ill go read. u can do watever u want.. tts it.. wierd huh?? wat boredom does to ppl.. roars!! hate being stuck alone at home during hols.. its such a waste of time.. //, 11:49 AM |